Sims 2

What computers can do constantly amaze me. There were no computers when I was at school, I missed out by a couple of years. My teenage daughter however, grew up with them from primary school.

Last night, after returning from her dads, Megs brought back Sims2.
We uploaded it onto the lap top, and then tried to replicate our family. It was great fun, but so complicated. We built a house from scratch, with 4 bedrooms, which is a luxury as we've never had more than a 3 bedroomed place. A bedroom each, fantasy is good.

Despite the game being extremely clever, and there's no way I could ever produce any game as complex as Sims2. I did find a few flaws. After a few glasses of red, I was being assertive, and quite fussy.

The first flaw was that, in order to have completely grey hair, which I do, I had to be an elder. I am only 40, and found nothing inspired me, in the choice of clothes. I don't dress too young for my age I don't think, however I don't dress too grown up either. I ended up changing to an adult, and having brown hair, the colour of my hair, before the premature greying (which runs in the family).

The next flaw, came when establishing the relationship between the characters we created. My eldest daughter is 19, so we had put her down as a adult. As she was an adult, and I was an adult she couldn't be my daughter, so we had to change her to a teenager. At 40 I could have a daughter of 23, or even older, when I was at school one girl left to have a baby at 15. With the rise in teenage pregnancies, adults are quite often mums to adults. Maybe this is something the creators of Sims2 ought to take on board.

Brain Overload

I have actually managed to write one essay today, but I am now feeling brain dead. What can you do when you have writing to do, and can't think of anything to write? I suppose, this is part and parcel of being a writer. It's been a very busy week, and we've had a lot of theory to take in. I can see how a good understanding of the theory can help develop, and focus my writing, however today I feel my brains been overloaded, and it's taking a well earned sabbatical.

So while my brain's having a well earned rest, it's a good time to have a brainless waffle on my blog. At least that way I feel like I'm still achieving something.

Thats it, I think, for the day. I'm picking my daughter up from the train station, after a week with her dad, and instead of taking, writing with me while I wait. I'm opting for a gentle, light read. You never know I may find some inspiration.

Message for my brain:

I hope you have a lovely rest, but please come back refreshed and eager tomorrow. I need you!

Getting used to what blogging is about

Now I have looked around at other peoples blog's, I have decided to create another blog. I am going to use this one as a diary of writing, emotions, etc as previously planned. I have also created JaxWritersSpot, to write about different issues, maybe more like an online mini magazine. Please visit my other blog. It would be good to see you there.

First Wobbles Monday 16th October

Hia all,
After the first week of proper lectures, I have really enjoyed it and have already learnt a fair bit, It was all going great until Thursday when I began to feel very overwhelmed, and found the tears coming easily, however I continued and was still able to continue, with the classes.

As Anxiety is my main problem, and as a year ago I couldn't even manage to sit in a group of people without wanting the floor to swallow me up, although I felt wobbly, this was positive for me. The tiredness has hit me hard this week, especially as I have gone straight into this, from taking a year off working.

I've spent the entire weekend, reading and writing, and enjoyed what I have done, but however still felt fairly low.

Last night I had a dream which illustrates my worries, it's very haphazard and I can't remember it all, however I would like to share this with you.

First thing I remember was being summoned to a training day, and as I was there discovered I was now part of the group, and the lecture theatre was my new place. After the lecture, I began to clear up sort out all the boxes, rubbish, etc that the previous occupant had left, and while doing that met up with another student, who was lookin phased. She had a headache and said a carrot would sort it out. Hang on I've got a carrot I thought, and then she mentioned she also needed a window. I had noticed a window lying on the lecture room floor in between all the seating. I went off and found the carrot. The rest of the dream, was about looking around for this girl, and wandering around lots of buildings places I didn't recognise, bumping into some people who seemed to have lost the plot, and others that appeared to be the authority and knew what they were doing. As the dream ended I became more aware that I had probably been sectioned, and was actually a resident in a mental health hospital.

It was quite a chaotic dream, a little bit scary, but recalling it did make me laugh.
Anyway enough blogging for today, I have an essay to finish. Luckily I'm sane enough to do it.

Wednesday 11th October Ist posting

As a complete technophobe, I have no idea what I'm doing really, but am presuming that a blog is a kind of diary, so thats what I am going to use this for.

The Planet Ug is probably not a good name for an inspiring writers blog, and I would like to explain the reasons behind the name. 'Ug' was a word used and common to myself and my partner when we first met, generally used instead of 'I don't know' Are you alright' etc, really only we understood it's meaning. Even though we have now gone our own ways after 20 years, it still stays with me.

A few years ago, after getting a good job, doing too much, work, family, and partying, I lost touch with reality for a little while, and am still recovering. I needed an online support system,so therefore set myself up an anonymous email address which was the Planet Ug. I used Planet, because as I felt like I was on a different planet, and removed from the reality I couldn't deal with at the ime.

I do waffle a lot and hope you'll all enjoy my waffling. Introductions and explanations over I hope to use this blog as a professional diary of my growth as a writer, but to also report how I feel about the process, and how I deal with it emotionaly, Hopefully it may be of use to other people who may not feel confident in their abilities due to anxiety and worry.

Quote for the day:
" It takes courage and positivity to believe that what you may have to say will be of interest to other people and then give up years to work on that"
Quote from an author on the television, unfortunately did not note who,but have it on my wall to keep me going.

The Planet Ug

Hia all, I have just started on a full on writing course, and this is my first ever blog. I don't know quite what I'm doing but am sure it'll be fun. I suppose will use this to diary my progress.