I'm back.

So its been many years since Ive last blogged but feel now I need to keep a record again of whats been going on in my life. Not the best timing but before tonight I had not posted as I thought because I probably could not remenber a password from over 12 years ago I would not be able to post on here & I tried to log in & it took me right here. If this posts I will start writing again: experiences of living with an acloholic. An alcoholic who has anger problems. Who I agree with even if I don't agree with him to prevent him going off the wall & getting really angry. Thing is when he does not drink too much & does not get angry hes lovely. Tonight I did a risk assessment with the police but because the situation has calmed down & I wanted to get back to a peacefull evening I did play down a lot of the questions. Yes he has tried to prevent me having contact with friends & even my family which he hasnt suceeded in. Yes he does completely want to know word for word what I write in messages I send to people & exactly what they say to me. He needs to know where I am & what Im doing all the time. He is manipulative. He makes me feel like I the one in the wrong all the time. I feel completely controled. I am a strong woman but im struggling.