Hope

I have not posted since saying I was back. It's difficult having any time to myself to write about my experience of living with an alcoholic, & I only have time because G is in hospital due to Pancreatitis. It's not the first time he's been in hospital with this & after  the last time he was doing really well cutting back on alcohol for a while, but  he started having more & more binges. I was waking up in the morning to him being drunk. I have been in a high alert state of anxiety  a lot of days. Worried about him falling down, often being subject to extreme anger, & wishing he would fall asleep for 2 reasons 1/ to have a bit of peace for a while & 2/ when he was asleep he was having a break from drinking. After working all week, weekends can be a complete nightmare. However this time around in hospital, he has stayed in for a 2nd night, as he is getting treatment in a drip to detox. Last time he was in with pancreatitis he discharged himself the night he went  in. He has made the decision to stay in & detox so this post is titled hope because I have hope. Xxx