As you will know if you read my last post G had a bit of a binge last weekend & this week he was meant to be on an inland flight to go his celebrate his best friends big birthday. I did try to say to him last weekend he could make himself ill for his trip, but when your pissed you don't listen. He was meant to be travelling on Thursday so on Wednesday he took it easy. Through that night he was up being sick. In the morning he could not move without being sick & had really severe stomach pains (pancreatitis pains). He was really ill & if he had gone to the doctors they would have sent him to hospital. Needless to say he could not fly when he could not even move.
Later in the afternoon he had the worse shakes I have ever seen him have, it was quite scary so he had to have a cider. I'm getting increasingly worried because the next day (Friday) he felt better & it was if he had not been so ill & he got through 9 ciders & was not overly drunk, but was quite drunk nonetheless. Today he got through 13 ciders & was slurring before he fell asleep on the sofa while we were watching a drama.
The binges are getting worse & actually could maybe not call them binges anymore as it's most days. When he gets ill it's getting worse. The shakes are getting worse. If he carries on like this he will kill himself. When he is sober he is very caring & loving and I do love him, but I don't like him at all when he's drunk. When he drunk he is selfish. When he is sober he does realise what he is doing to himself & to me but then he grabs another drink. I am getting increasingly worried. It's like he on self destruct & when he is drinking he does not care about the affect of his actions for people around him: people who love him.
